❥ ʝeς ' ὀιοgφ

pressure pressure!

2011-01-22T21:16:00.000+08:00

olla peeps. *no one actually reads i guess* lol

well, there goes three weeks of my uni classes.

lecturers been giving quite some pressure,

keep tellin' the rest of the class how great,
how good students me and my friends are.
somehow, that makes the rest of the class dislike us. and i don't want that

gosh. just because we are his past sem' students.

he's really expecting good results, presentations from us.

too high expectations really can lead to lotsa pressure.

so yeah, chinese new year is around the corner.

bought any new clothes already?

wish you a very happy and prosperous chinese new year,

with lotsa wealth as well as health.

peace out,

jesmyntan

bye 2010, hello 2011

2010-12-31T01:25:00.000+08:00

23 more hours to 2011 people.

what are you guys doing?

so what have you achieved this year?

did anything productive?

well, mine sounds rather lifeless.

attend classes, come back home, attend classes again, come back home.

imagine repeating that everyday.

i guess nothing very special happened this year,

except for i was admitted to the hospital during my oh-so-awesome sem break.

so, what you guys wanna achieve the coming year?

any big plans?

hope you guys will a good year ahead.

forget all that happened in 2010,

leave behind sad ones and hope for more happy ones in the coming year!

just a short update from me.

happy new years peeps!

yours truly.

somehow i miss this hairstyle a lot. ❤

helloo hongkong !! part 3

2010-12-24T22:44:00.000+08:00

Day Five

headed to Macau early in the morning.

gonna stay 1 night over there. :)

checked in at the hotel at around noon.
stayed at THE VENETIAN MACAU

after settling down, we headed to the Macau Town.
Visited the Statue of Goddess of Mercy.

St. Paul's Church, 大三巴. Grand Canyon @ The Venetian.
Then Portugese Cuisine for dinner. *droools*
Oh yeah ! and I entered the Casino! All I know how to play is the Jackpot Machine.

LOL-ness. heyyy, i won some ! :p

but people, please don't get addicted !
once you win, you'll never wanna leave and that's when you're stuck-ed!

Macau Town

Goddess Of Mercy

amitabha

sisters

Portuguese dinner

our hotel suite

St. Paul's

famous noodles

the hotel we stayed in. The Venetian Macau

basically, this the the whole room - lah.

The Grand Canal

the living hall

the washroom

hugable kissable loveable.

Portuguese eggie tarts

in the hotel mall. the sky is not real peeps. :D

dusk.

Day Six

continued the Macau day tour.
first, had my favourite, world-best Pork Chop Bun,
it goes really well with MilkTea as well as Tiramisu Ice Cream.
went to a temple 妈祖庙, in Barra,
then headed to Wynn's Hotel to see their famous Tree of Prosperity.

lunched at 三元粥店, their pork intestine are aweeeeesome!
headed back to HongKong later in the afternoon.
checked in to another hotel, Park Hotel over at Tsim Sha Tsui, Kowloon Island, Hong Kong.
accompanied the Boss to the B.P International House aka The H.K Scouts Head Quarters.

and he bought like he never shopped b4 ! >_<

me and my fav. pork chop bun.

at the BP House

mua bun. :)

gansta ! :p

tree of prosperity

Wynn's Casino

doin' our MilkTea

Visit Those Links For More Pictures :)
Day Five Pictures
Day Six Pictures

helloo hongkong !! part 2

2010-12-24T15:03:00.002+08:00

Day Three

it's darling's first visit to HK.
brought him to some tourist spots.

we went to THE PEAK (wax museum) , Stanley Market.
it's my 2nd visit to these places, with my DSLR this time, i can take nicer pics ! :p

after the day tour, met up with mua HK bestie, Hilla, for dinner. :)

olllaaa

Mahatma Gandhi

Madona

Sumo

Micheal Yeoh

Elvis Presley

Marilyn Monroe

Micheal Jackson

Miriam Yeung

Obama and Bush

Shakespeare

Tiger Woods

Aaron Kwok

Andy Lau

Yau Ming

Brad Pitt

Astro Boy

Einstein

Teresa Tang

Anita Mui

Beat It ~ !

Bruce Lee *waaakaaa*

Kelly Chen

Janice

Beckham *mind me, very despo. i know. he's too sexaaay to resist!*

Twins

The Beatles

Leo Ku

Leslie Cheung

Jay Chou

Ip Man

Jet Li

@ Stanley Market

Jump Up !

With Mua HK bestie , Hilla Ip !

cutie pie.


missed the train. or else HK MRT station won't look so empty.:p

Day Four
it's free and easy for today!
we went shooooping. yes. shopping again.
went over to 旺角, shopped at 旺角中心.

fyi, it's exactly like our Sg.Wang. cheap and nice stuff selling there.
the only difference is their quality is wayyyy better.

then, walked to 波鞋街, whole stretch of shops selling shoes.
nike, converse, you name it.
and i got myself a pair of converse ! :)

streets of Mong Kong

you tiao + chee cheong fun.

Visit Those Links For More Pictures :)
Day Three Pictures
Day Four Pictures

helloo hongkong !!

2010-12-24T13:58:00.003+08:00

all thanks to facebook, now all blogs seems so quiet.
some people don't even bother to update their blogs ever since.

oh wait. or should i say, I? lol.

escaped the warm and humid weather for a week, to HONG KONG ~~again~~ !

and when the word HONG KONG is mentioned, means SHOPPING! :)

oh yeah, this trip was kinda special. what makes it special is this time, i went with moi family and the boyfriend.

p/s : sorry for updating it late. :)

let the pictures do the talking, shall we?

Day One.

From Kuala Lumpur to Hong Kong.
The plane took off around 9.52 a.m and we arrived around 1.30 p.m.
Checked In The Regal Hotel @ HongKong around 4.00 p.m.

After settled down, I started hunting for goods !
went to Times Square, Sogo. Everywhere was on SALES ! :D

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year

Hi, I'm Jesmyn's My Monstrous Sister, Chloe.


Top Of The World !

Day Two

woke up early, like i never did before for breakfast.

well, when in Rome, do what the Romans do. haha.
live the HK people lifestyle, had porridge at this very yummy restaurant,
famous for their porridge - 海皇粥店
then headed to the Eden Marriage Registry,
to attend my Uncle's Wedding Reception.
after that, Shopping AGAIN,
then Wedding Dinner @ Wan Chai late in the evening.

good morning !

breakfast @ 海皇粥店

^O^

the sweetheart. ❤

moi sister. ❤

at Eden Marriage Registry

Daddy. ❤

Family. ❤

people were protesting there. and this budak sibukk.

hearts. ❤

kissie kissie

at the Wedding Dinner

some not-famous-yet artist

BIG small eyes.

with the newly weds.

sisters.

my prince charming.

my uncle. the bridegroom.

Visit Those Links For More Pictures :)

Day One Pictures
Day Two Pictures

whatsup dude !

2010-11-10T20:36:00.000+08:00

you peeps must be wondering what is wrong with me choppin' my hair off,

going shorter and shorter. lol

the boyfie made so much noise when the hair stylist was choppin' em' off.

i'm sick of all the old hair styles la people.

got bored lookin' at em' already.

don't wanna look so girlish, time to look more boyish ! ;]

people giving this one-kind-stare at us when we were walking around the mall.

they think we are gay partners ;[

countdown : 2 days.

peace out,

jesmyntan

happy.holidays

2010-11-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

living a quite lifeless life recently.

having my semester break for two freaking months.

yes, you didn't get me wrong. two freaking miserable months.

besides grooming my four hunnie pie, washing toilets, cleaning my wardrobe, study desk,

did absolutely nothing productive, as always.

but, feeling extremely excited and counting down for the coming trip to my second home.

woohoo ! anticipating. wanna know where? stay tuned for the pictures yeah? ;]

well, i guess that's all.

just a short update to keep my blog alive. ;]

countdown : 3 more days.

peace out,

jesmyntan

2010-10-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

my bloggie is DEAD again.

❥ back to nature

2010-09-16T15:43:00.001+08:00

Ola !!

Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends, i apologize for any wrongdoings. :)

So, what have you guys been doing throughout this long holiday?

enjoyed ? well, for me, i escaped the city for the long weekends.

Presenting ...

Dusun Garden Fairies @ Hulu Langat

It's a family trip for the Love Culture Education Centre

as one of the helper, i was invited for this trip.

the best part was, it was F.O.C, not a single penny needed to pay!

i would say that this is a very meaningful trip. lotsa families went, lotsa kids were there.

well, i have to say that it's a good idea to visit this place, to bring kids there,

you know, city kids nowadays don't know how life is back to nature, how's life in kampung-s,

how is it like so sleep under the stars, suffering mosquito bites, showering in hot-springs and waterfalls. even i don't ! what more the younger ones? :)f

this place is not quite far from town, 45mins drive up there? near?

there were many Malay villages along the round, around that area,
so I was like celebrating my Raya holidays as well. :p

location map

the floor plan

so, i think i should stop typing and let the pictures talk. :)

10th - 11th of September 2010

the tree-house

the garden slope

beneath the tree-house

the hanging garden? :)

in the tree-house

*equipped with air-cond*

the washroom

the pavilion

games in the afternoon :) @ the lawn garden

yoga in the morning :)

hot-spring-s

group pictures

and lastly, i went with this two monkeys.

the sister

the boyfriend
*jes : i'm hot i'm hot !*
*ed: not you lahh. =.= the hot spring !*

♫ ♫ ♥ ♪♫•*¨*♫ ♫ ♥ ♪♫•*¨*•.¸♫ ♫ ♥ ♪♫•*¨*♫ ♫ ♥ ♪♫•*¨*•.¸

12th of September

to the FRIM
with the boyfriend's scout members and brotha

it's a reserved forest situated @ Kepong
i'm fat ! so i have to go do some exercise ! :p

family photo? haha

my shoulder to lean on ❤

ya-ya :p

jogging track

crazy bunch of people doing monkey show. haha

the macho guys

steps of life

the brother and the ah-sou

the road not taken

that's all for the update peeps.

toodles, peace out

jesmyntan

❥ hellooo short sem !

2010-09-01T00:45:00.001+08:00

jesmyntan had officially ended her semester break and classes will start tomorrow.

yeap. which means my semester break, my holidays had officially ended just like that ! whaaaatttaa. i did nothing productive ! yes. NOTHING productive.

ehh, wait. i did !!
i helped my mum @ her office with some photo-shooting of some products.
i cooked lotsa yummy yummy dishes with the loved one. :)

i uhhmmm. i think that's all. productive, not? :)

weeeheee. i'm starting my first day of my DEGREE in Mass Comm YEAR 1, SEMESTER 2 tomorrow ! XD lookin' forward to it. My dear babes, Lynn and Sha won't be with me this sem. :(
But, teeeheee, i got new fweeen kayh? Anne Choo, 3 years we gotta stick 2gthr ! :D

Oh Yeah! Happy 53rd Independence Malaysia !
But, hey, Merdeka, Independence day, SO WHAT ?!
I don't feel patriotic, because sometimes, i feel that this country isn't my home. I feel like living in this country is like putting our lives in danger, in risk. :(
yeah. i'm sure many of you people read news , watched videos posting around @ facebook regarding racial issues, eh? whatcha think ? i'm sure you guys have lots to comment about.

well, as for me, i'm not mad. but very disappointed, very upset to see such things.
if you guys know, i'm surrounded with lotsa Malay friends. They are really nice people, helpful, great people to be around with. And, i have to say, they are even better people compared to SOME chinese friends I have. Not all Malays or All Chinese are racists. Just minority.

Why can't everyone live peacefully without harming each other, mentally or physically? We are living in such a wonderful land, compared to other countries, we have no natural disasters *besides those floods =.=* , we are so rich with natural resources, why can't we just be thankful with what we have and appreciate it?

Despite all those crap, I love my homeland a lot, i grew up here, i live here. No one should be made uncomfortable in their own home. why are we asked to get back to our country ? where to go when M'sia is my country, my homeland? lol. and why are we called dogs?

Sometimes I fail to comprehend how can these people function with an IQ three degree below dog shit. =_= We are a big family. No one should be categorize as MALAYS, CHINESE or INDIANS. We are all MALAYSIANS. yes, M . A . L . A . Y . S . I . A . N . S , hellooooo. Which part of MALAYSIANS you people don't understand? So Much For 1-Malaysia. *big sigh*

OH, before i end my post, LET ME TELL YOU WHAT IS 1-MALAYSIA !

miss you guys lots ! :)

i have to get some sleep.
hope that 2mrw will be a better day :)
Goodnight people !

peceout
jesmyntan

❥ i am thankful..

2010-08-30T00:00:00.001+08:00

was checking thru' my mail box and came across this mail I received.
It's quite meaningful thou'
After reading, I think i shouldn't complain anymore. Appreciate what I have now before it's too late ! :)
Do read thru peeps !

I AM THANKFUL:

FOR THE WIFE WHO SAYS IT'S HOT DOGS TONIGHT,
BECAUSE SHE IS HOME WITH ME, AND NOT OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE.

FOR THE HUSBAND WHO IS ON THE SOFA BEING A COUCH POTATO,
BECAUSE HE IS HOME WITH ME AND NOT OUT AT THE BARS.

FOR THE TEENAGER WHO IS COMPLAINING ABOUT DOING DISHES
BECAUSE IT MEANS SHE IS AT HOME, NOT ON THE STREETS.

FOR THE TAXES I PAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM EMPLOYED.

FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS.

FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE TOO MUCH TO EAT.

FOR MY SHADOW THAT WATCHES ME WORK
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM OUT IN THE SUNSHINE

FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING, WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING, AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME.

FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT
BECAUSE IT MEANS WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

FOR THE PARKING SPOT I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WA LK ING AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION.

FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM WARM.

FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH WHO SINGS OFF KEY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I CAN HEAR.

FOR THE PILE OF LAUNDRY AND IRONING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.

FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES AT THE END OF THE DAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.

FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE.

❥ not too bad.

2010-08-27T14:47:00.002+08:00

woah ! finally my results were released !

>_<

Introduction to Mass Comm. 2 more marks to an A !!!

As you can see, my results are shitty. thank god i didn’t fail any subjects ! have to work harder next sem.

❥ ℒℴvℯ yℴu

2010-08-25T23:48:00.001+08:00

~ Happy Holidays ~

peace-out

jesmyntan
ℒℴvℯ yℴu

❥ 5, 60, 260, 1825

2010-08-20T19:43:00.002+08:00

Should’ve updated this yesterday. sorry for the late update.

It’s The
5th year, 60th Month, 260th Week, 1825th Day
We Were Hand-In-Hand.

A very long period of time?
I don’t think so.

Though it has been 5 year,
Still, we quarrel a lot. Fight a lot. “Debate” a lot.
Talk on the phone for long hours just to argue what blood type majority has. We still make stupid mistakes that will cause one of us super-duper MAD. Gets jealous when girls/guys gets near one of us. Teasing each other like there’s no tomorrow. Show-off who is more knowledgeable. *LOL*
But hey, we enjoy it, like .. urm A LOT ?
Those are the small little things that made us held each other so tightly. We fight, we quarrel so that we understand better what each other wants. Gets jealous because we care and never want to lose each other anymore.

Sweetie,
Happy 5th Year Anniversary.
I really do hope we can celebrate this day in the years to come.
We always fight because of whatever happened in the past,
I know I’ve made many silly mistakes and decisions,
I know I’ve once let u go and hurt you very deeply
I know I’ve always get angry and jealous easily,
I know I’ve offended you in many ways all these years,
BUT
I promise I’ll never repeat em’ anymore.
I promise I’ll never let go u again.
I promise I’ll control my temper.
I promise I’ll make a change and I’m already trying hard.
I was stupid once, but never will be again.

Although you always sleep super duper early without letting me know, making me wait for you till late night.

Although you like to make faces.

Although you always think you look darn good.
SS *syok sendiri*

* the very first picture of you *

I still love you lots ! Like HELLLL LOTS

Love the way you hug me
Love the way you pamper me
Love the way you let me bully u ;p
Love the way you love me

our very first picture. *taken when we were form2, ryte?*

I cherish you. Love you.

peaceout
jesmyntan

❥ one down

2010-08-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

finished one of my 2 papers, which is Introduction to Mass Comm.
Gawd. 600words about what happened in 1970s about TV industry.

i didn't manage to write that many words. :(

and thanks Baby ! for comin' over early morning to fetch me to uni, and fetched me home :p

one more to go. Expository Writing.

fuhh. the subject i worry most !

lecturer keep canceling classes, crap a lot when she teach, confusing us and herself as well.

so, yeah. pray hard that i'll pass ! *fingers crossed*

peace-out

jesmyntan

❥ hunt you down.

2010-08-13T00:36:00.000+08:00

*clears throat*

teehee, welcome to my dead blog again.
so yeah. i know i can't blog much, besides telling you guys i'm busy lah, finals lah, assignments lah.
well, what to do ? i'm a nerd MAH. :(

so yeah. again. finals is tomorrow, and i'm still blogging now.

awesome ryte? chillax. paper is at 2.30pm. :)

another one on next tuesday. then i'm free ! :D

so date me kayh people? :p

I Will Survive
* woohoo *

peace-out
jesmyntan

sad face

2010-07-14T23:08:00.000+08:00

sobs. look at my chat box.

peeps are complaining that my blog is boring.
guys. i know kayh. >_<
i'm lazy to blog ! that's the thing.
and i'm buried by assignments !
group mates are not contributing.

A.W.E.S.O.M.E

A Day Out

2010-07-10T13:25:00.001+08:00

aloha !
welcome to my oh-so-boring blog again ! :p

since i haven’t update for quite sometime,
let me just blab a few words here kayh ?
so. yeah. as usual. assignments piling up, finals around the corner,
but ! i haven’t forget to relax myself yeah. teehee.

had a day out with moi peeps on the 8th of July.
and Yes ! we watched twilight eclipse. :D
well. i’ll rate that movie 8/10 lar.
Edward Cullen is still as attractive and Jacob is still as muscular as always. :p

urm. lazy to type so let the pictures do the talkin.

those who went : Me, Lynn, Zaza.J, Zaza.Z, Sasha, Coddy, Adam, Eika, Aisha. and our special guests : Asyikin and Vanessa.

活在感恩的世界

2010-06-28T23:11:00.001+08:00

感激斥责你的人因为他助长了你的定慧
Be Grateful To Those Who Have Denounced You, For They Have Increased Your Wisdom And Concentration.

感激绊倒你的人因为他强化了你的能力
Be Grateful To Those Who Have Made You Stumble, For They Have Strengthen Your Abilities.

感激遗弃你的人因为他教导了你应自力
Be Grateful To Those Who Have Abandoned You, For They Have Taught You To Be Independent.

感激鞭打你的人因为他消除了你的业障
Be Grateful To Those Who Have Hit You, For They Have Reduced Your Karmic Obstacles.

感激欺骗你的人因为他增进了你的见识
Be Grateful To Those Who Have Deceived You, For They Have Deepened Your Insight.

感激伤害你的人因为他磨练了你的心志
Be Grateful To Those Who Have Hurt Or Harmed You, For They Have Reinforced Your Determination.

感激所有使你坚定成就的人
Be Grateful To All Who Have Made You, Firmed & Resolute And Helped In Your Achievement.

: it’s paradise, wherever there’s you around.

2010-06-15T21:47:00.001+08:00

my blog was full of dust is because i was really busy these days.
never thought that i can pass my days so productively.
was first super duper busy with assignments and tests.
then designing tickets for a school’s prom night and lastly,
charity work.

i never liked charity work in the past. fyi, my perception of charity work is to help out at old folks homes, handicapped centre and stuff like that. i’m afraid to see people suffering. i don’t like it.

until just recently, my aunt from my mum’s side, asked me to help her in design and layouts for the camp. and the boyfriend, mr.edmund lim
to help and guide them in organizing and planning the camp as this is their very first time doin’ one. so yes, i helped , cuz it wasn’t something like i have to clean and bathe, cut nails and change for old folks and whatsoever. i designed the camp banners, posters, booklets, certificates, etc etc. anything to do with deco and designs under my work scope ! this place is near the Nam Kheung primary school, beside i-don’t-know what kindergarten. It’s called the “LOVE CULTURE EDUCATION CENTRE” [孝悌书轩] It’s not a temple, it’s just a place where kids go there to learn about chinese culture and teaching. They don’t do prayers and all.

So yeah, this camp was designated for kids ages 11 – 16. the theme is “ It’s Paradise, Wherever There’s You Around”. [有你的地方是天堂] Fyi, the “You” refers to our parents, the ones who brought us here, gave us life. It’s a 3D2N camp. aims are to educate little kids to be nice and well to their parents, as well as transmit info like Where and How babies come from to those young little kids.

So Yeah ! that’s all for this post !
Let me get over my hectic-ness and i’ll tell you guys more ! :D

The Banner i Designed and the stage we decorated. >< very gweeeen i know. people there are eco friendly mah. wanna reuse those unused cloth ! lol

BYE ..

peace out ! mwah !

jesmyntan.

: gone ~

2010-06-03T12:39:00.001+08:00

crap !
5 months gone just like that.
May said bye bye .. and now .. June says helloooo !

sigh. kinda feel sad cuz i felt that i’d not do anything productive thru’out this 5 months !
and the best part is .. i haven’t freakin’ take my driving license !

2010-05-30T00:26:00.002+08:00

watching you walk out
of my life hasn’t made
me bitter or cynical
about love, but rather,
it has shown me that
if I wanted so badly
to be with the wrong
person, how beautiful
it will be when the
right one comes along?

❥ abandoned. ;(

2010-05-21T19:34:00.000+08:00

how long have i been abandoning my oh-so-awesome blog? ;p

i can see it's all covered with few inches of dust. ;(

i specially updated for Mr.Lim Way Hang that claims that he visits my blog every 2 days,
but there were no updates. so let's see if he really DID visit every 2 days. ;p

i'm currently doin' my first semester in BA (Hons) in Mass Communication.

gawdd. thou' my subjects now are quite la-la-la..

but i have a feelin' that it's gonna be real tough as it goes.

and yes. i've completed my foundations! passed all my subjects! CGPA is quite okay. ;)
managed to complete it without takin' any supp. papers or retakin' the subject !
* i can't afford to pay the fees if i fail ! >< *

won't be bloggin' so often. startin' to get busy with assignments, homeworks, helpin' a camp doin' some design and layout stuff..and my 2 new born pups..etc etc.

brother. ESTON. 5 weeks old.

sister. ELCIE. 5 weeks old.

so yeah. how are you guys doin' ?great? tell me about it ! ;D
that's all for this post.
tata. see you guys soon. real soon. kayh?

mwah !

jesmyntan.xoxo.

❥ happy birthday hongseng !

2010-05-09T20:03:00.001+08:00

okay. before i start..

brotha..sorry for postin' this late kayh?

and

heehee. nice picture ryte ?! ;D

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY KOR !

sorry that i couldn't attend the celebration AGAIN.
cuz it's at night and i've got stuff to do early next morning.
so.yeah.
hope you had a blast !
may all you wishes come true.
yes.you're already 19 this year.
VERY legal for lotsa stuff i know.
but do stick to who you are cuz tht's the thing that makes you
MY AWESOME-EST BROTHA !

all the best.
please. cut down ur emo-ness.
not good weih....
again.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY !
WE LOVE YOU! :D

❥ happy mother's day !

2010-05-09T18:48:00.000+08:00

happy mother's day mum !

we love you ! ;D

thanks for everything.

thanks for nurturing us.

❥ 时间，人。

2010-04-27T19:08:00.002+08:00

对的时间，遇见对的人，是一生幸福；
对的时间，遇见错的人，是一场伤心；
错的时间，遇见错的人，是一段荒唐；
错的时间，遇见对的人，是一生叹息。

❥ soon2be.

2010-04-14T19:01:00.000+08:00

our dear princess, elizabeth ..

is givin' birth in one week time.

this soon-to-be mama is super duper fierce now.

will upload pics of those lil.schnauzers after birth.

;)

okie. that's all.

just simple wanna release stress.

tata

❥ finals fever !

2010-04-09T13:20:00.002+08:00

just realized i rarely blog.

lol. since 8/13/08 till today ..

i only blogged 200 posts !

yeah. finals is next week.

gotta study really hard.

pass all my subjects in this final sem in foundation then i gotta start my year1 in degree !

it's gonna be real tough in degree.

no more lazing around for me. no more being couch potato.

no more cuukoo-ing. ;(

so. tata for now !

have to face-the-books instead of face-book-ing. ;(

study mode is on ! *konon-nya*

peace out

❥ my sister - ii

2010-04-09T00:47:00.000+08:00

since i'll be at home all day being a couch potato, waitin' for my finals..

mum gave me this task. lol. train the new maid. lol.
trainin' her isn't that hard after all.

i gotta teach her how to :
wash the washrooms OUR way,
mop the floor OUR way,
fold the clothes OUR way, etc etc.

i'm sure there's this 2 person might wanna say a few words when i say i taught her how to do those house chores.
*har?! jesmyn tan! you do housework ah?! sure or not ! hahaha*
am i right ? ms. joey ong sze yen & ms. nur liyana hamdan. ;)

well, is not that i don't know how to, it's just that i don't want to and i'm lazy to. XD
like dad always say : " there are thousands of reasons to give if not don't want to do something, but only one reason, if you wanna do it. "

the cambodian maid really thought "my sister" is my sis's name ! lol

mum & sis : * laughing about some jokes*

XXX : maaadammm , "my sister" smile..heehee.. [ mind her. her vocab is not good.lol ]

mum : @-@ *faint*

❥ my sister.

2010-04-06T19:01:00.001+08:00

parents just brought home a cambodian maid.
she don't know english nor malay. all she understands is her own language.

and i've gotta teach her english and a bit of chinese.

fuhh, i tell you, this is a difficult task! ><

damn hard ! and darn funny ! XD

my sister, chloe, just came home from school.

so..as usual, me being very friendly, introduced my sister to her.

this was how the conversation went. *mind me. broken english spoke ! lol*

me: XXX, come, this..MY SISTER.

XXX: ohhh ! My Sister. *she thought "my sisters" was my sis, chloe's name*
me & chloe: *wtf* *faint* running far far away from her , ROFL !

seriously weih. i've gotta learn her language instead.

whenever i wanna ask her to do something,

i've gotta ask her to my comp, i google what i wanna tell her,

ONLY she'll understand !

*sweats*

peace out

jesmyntan

2010-03-26T11:39:00.003+08:00

teehee. ❤

very random. i know.

but, who cares !?

it's my blog. ;p

peace out.
xoxo . jesmyntan

❥ raped !!

2010-03-25T17:54:00.001+08:00

things weren't that good since dunno when.

all these crap happening to me is freaking scary.

and the best part is .. all happens after my birthday !

last year. after my birthday, i got dengue, now ear blockage. sigh

is it a sign that tells me , i should keep it low. shouldn't celebrate my birthday?

low profile jes, low low low.

so .. yeah. i'm sure you guys knew about what happened.

*ofcuz we know la. you're spreading the news like wth only. darn pathetic loe. =.=*

you guys must be wondering, WTH ?! RAPED ?!

hehe. nahh. worry not. only my ear was RAPED ! :p

okay. what i meant by raped is i've undergo this minor surgery for my dear ear. ;(

according to ms.liyana hamdan, i was having "temporary deafness sydrome"

*wth lynn. where got such syndrome 1 ! lol*

i was partially deaf for almost 5 days. can hardly hear anything.

my surrounding was so so so quiet. i should say .. it's very peaceful in a bad way >.<

rather lifeless. all i wanna do is sleep sleep sleep and sleep.

can't even attend classes as i couldn't hear. all i can do is stay at home.

well. did a minor oppie' . okay lah. operation... BUT oppie sounds so cute whaaaat. :)

urm. was admitted to the hospital in the morning and the operation is at 1pm.

Fuhh. i tell you ! this hospital is way way way nicer than any 5 star hotels ! :D

service is very good. got bell boy to carry my stuff somemore weih !

i even have a menu to pick what i wanna have for my meals ! and the best part is i dunno what to choose , too many variety. :D i've got appetizer , main course , side dish and desert ! bwahahaha

*cut the crap , cut the crap*

urm. was asked to sign lotsa forms and documents.

seriously, this fears me. especially the anaesthetic consent form.

when was reading thru' the risks and all. >.<

was asked to take off EVERYTHING , yes everything..undies..and nail polish >< and changed into this dunno what thingy.

then, was brought to the operation theater at around 2pm.

clothes were took off , was naked .. i literally was shivering ! lol.

that room is scary. tubes and wires all over. computers here and there.

and the friggin' air cond is darn cold ! = =

they then put me on drips , fuhhh ! damn pain lah when they poke that dumb dumb needle in me ! my hand is still painful till now ! = =

and ... they asked me to inhale this dunno oxygen thingy then the intravenous

anaesthetics. at that moment..my vision was kinda blurrie and then ... x_x ...... unconscious ! slept dead ! the next thing i know is..i was shivering..and my mom was beside me. hahahaha. again i wanna emphasize is THE AIR COND IF EFFIN' COLD !!

hmm. now. i can hear clearly with me right ear . but not the left one.

doctor said it's bleeding inside, he stuffed a padding in there and can only remove it on monday. dumb dumb la ! i gotta be deaf for another 3 more days !

seriously. i don't wanna go thru stuff like that anymore ! it's scary !

it fears me.

i wanna attend the human comm. forum so so badly , as i was one of the panel , but had to give up ;( sigh. i wonder how the whole session went. hope you guys did well. *fingers crossed* beat the other team ?! hahaha.

oh yeah. one more thing. to Liyana, Sha and Both Zaza's ...

the nurses here are darn handsome weih ! >.< the guys i mean. ladies .. okay okay nih la. ;p the one who injected the anaesthetic thingy on me was darn chunn ! XD

and he was singing "i'm yours" in the operation theater ! nice vocal ! coool ! XD

❥ so quiet.

2010-03-23T14:35:00.000+08:00

sigh. it's already day 3.

i'm partially deaf for already 3 freakin' days !

my surrounding is so so so quiet.

i'm so not used to this feeling.

hopefully everything goes well ;(

❥ weird dreams. just for "you" .

2010-03-16T17:37:00.004+08:00

have the sudden urge to blog.

needa blog about this weih ! lol

suddenly people tellin' me this today

" jes ! last night i have this weird dream of you lah ! "

okay. it goes like this.

first ; my dear long lost cousin brotha that i recently met him again.

Mr.Victor Lee Wee Terk

" so funny..ytd nite i dream of u =_=
weird dream. we kiss and hug , act lik couple =____= "

then ; my dear oh-so-long-time-no-see babe.
Ms.Joey Ong Sze Yen

" Jesmyn Tan yesterday I dream that U and Edmund hugging u guys baby at KLIA,ready to go for vacation!!!!!!!! >.< haha "

lastly ; my dear friends that i forgotten how on earth i met him.
Mr.Lim Way Hang

" hmm..weird.. i also had a dream smth about jesmyn last night..some thing bad =xwahahahaha. i just dream that you've passed away XD then i cry..lmao "

Lol. See. Dunno What's Goin' On With People Nowadays La. Missed Me Too Much Dy Izit ?
And Now I Know Why I Felt So Tired This Morning When i Woke Up. I RAN INTO EVERYONE's DREAM ! bwahahaha. Haha. Okay. I know. SS-ing much ><

❥-----❥-----❥-----❥-----❥-----❥-----❥-----❥-----❥-----❥-----❥-----❥-----

i don't know what on earth i did to deserve this.
or .. maybe i did. but certainly don't deserved to be talked behind my back.
don't deserved to be judged.
i don't really know these people.
only hi-bye friends of mine.
is it just because this person is a friend of this certain someone,
this person have to look at me with this one-kind look?
and even delete me from ur' friend list huh?

well.

to whom it may concern. *if you know who you are* and
if only these people happen to see this.

i never hated you. i never did anything to offend you. never did and never will.

you don't know what REALLY was goin' on at that time.

yes. i know this certain someone is a friend of yours.

i just couldn't care less if you hated me or whatsoever.

i really don't care. but hey. yes. i felt offended.
but you don't needa offend me like that.
wanted to just give one friendly smile. but . what i deserve ?

i don't deserve this "one-kind" look from you when you see me.

i don't deserve you being sarcastic to me.

you don't really know me. and only heard stories from one party. not both.
therefore. please. don't judge me. you're nobody to do so.
and again. I never did dislike you. never will.
but if you do hate me. hate all you want. i'm fine with it. ;)

i know what i'm doin. and never regretted for doin' it.
thanks !

❥ nobody

2010-03-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

who the heck are you to judge me?

someone's already got over all those shit.

why are you outsiders still creating drama?

i can sense the sarcastic-ness kayh?

so lifeless..can't you just get a life ?

again. you're nobody to judge me.

you might have heard from someone what happened.

but you don't now what ACTUALLY happened.

don't bark when you know nothing at all.

and don't be fooled. i only act like i care.

it's just so fun to write things about the bitches i hate. ;D

❥ deep

2010-03-11T00:47:00.001+08:00

愛只有簡單筆畫 , 卻比想像複雜

a very meaningful quote

❤

❥ soon

2010-03-09T18:00:00.002+08:00

i tell you what ..

my 19th birthday was AWESOME !

a very very GREAT one !

i'll never ever forget !

i'm too tired to update about it now.

do it soon kayh? stay tune. ;D

great.now i'm being called the "venus of tan-tan"

just because of the word "tan-tan" =.=

ouukayh.just in case you guys don't know what is

the venus of tan-tan

please google it. something to do with the stone thingy above ! >.<

❥ sexxxayyy !

2010-03-05T21:16:00.001+08:00

[ The Puma Ferrari Sneakers for Women ]*

they're so gorgeous, aren't they ?!

so sexxxaayy ! want want want ... ;(

hmm. oukay. start saving from now on.

so many things i wanna buy. = =

❥ laptop

❥ dslr

❥ sony.ericsson w995
❥ ipanema sandals

❥ puma ferrari sneakers for women

❥ purse

wth. save from now on ! = =

hmm. yeah. been arguing a lot these days.

but hey ..

i'm not perfect

i'll annoy you , piss you off

say stupid stuff, and take it back.

but put all that aside and

i'm sure you'll see

you'll never find a girl

that cares and loves you

more than me. ;p

❥ cair-ed.

2010-03-04T00:27:00.002+08:00

so obsessed with these cartoon-ized south park characters
lol. very random i know.
but hey. it's friggin' cute okay ;p
created a few
the one you saw above.
obviously, is me.

my sweetheart ❤ edmund

my partner in crime. liyana hamdan

the blurie cute one. zaza.jamil

the caring one. sashareen omar

the one i pour out almost all my frustrations to. jonathan lee

the one i tease oh-so-much. coddy wong

the one that teases me so so much. shawn lim

my ouh-so-hug-able babe. zaza zahar

the one that shares the same birthday with me. simon hor

my very loveable darling.the one that is always there for me. yap liweng

the oh-so-many girls-after-him buddy. tan yao bang

my beloved bro that always help me. *by using reserve psychology* leong hong seng

and last but not least.

my very sweet ji mui that i miss her muchie. joey ong.

they're so so so cute , aren't they ?

please say yes k peeps? ;p
hmm. okay
i know this is not a few la people.

haha. but sorry.

so obsessed. they are too cute. can't resist ! ;p

❤ YOUMAKEMESMILE ❤

hehe. this is cuter ryte? ;p

i'm gonna create my family members

as well as jjfc members soon!

real soon.

adioz peeps!

havin' my midterms actually. ;p

nyte nyte

sweet dreams

❥ hearts

2010-02-27T02:32:00.000+08:00

❤

i've got loads to blog about actually.

but i just don't know why i'm so freakin' lazy to
sit down .. and think and type what i wanna blog about.
or .. perhaps ..

i'm just procrastinating again?

* don't know since when i'm so good at this ! =.= *

yes. i used to very indecisive,

but.yeah.now i'm not sure. ;p
or

i should say ..

i'm not anymore? :D

once upon a time ..

something happened to me.

it was the sweeeetest thing that ever could be...

a fantasy, a dream come true !

gahh. i shall stop crappin'
it's gettin' late ! needa sleep weih..

will blog into details soon k ?
goodnight !

adioz . xoxoxo

jesmyntan

i ❤ you , mr.boyfriend.

❥ happy valen-cny !

2010-02-14T16:17:00.003+08:00

hey guys ! no time no blog ! XD

happy chinese new year and happy valentines day to all !

may this year of tiger brings each and everyone of you
lotsa wealth !

good health !

prosperity !

good luck !

...

ANYTHING YOU WISH FOR LAH ! :D

and you !!!!!

happy valentines day ! :) hearts hearts ! :P

❥ happy valen-cny !

2010-02-14T16:17:00.001+08:00

hey guys ! no time no blog ! XD

happy chinese new year and happy valentines day to all !

may this year of tiger brings each and everyone of you
lotsa wealth !

good health !

prosperity !

good luck !

...

ANYTHING YOU WISH FOR LAH ! :D

and you !!!!!

happy valentines day ! :) hearts hearts ! :P

❥ Day One - Turn Over A New Leaf

2010-02-07T11:01:00.003+08:00

no access to the internet and the people doin' the streamyx line is lazy !

this best explains why i wasn't blogging for so long !

oh. and ofcuz not forgetting that i'm busy doin the unpacking and cleaning up the new house. will show you guys pics of the house when everything is settled down k ? :)

so. yeah. you guys must be scratching your heads thinkin' " why is it day 1 again hur?! "
well.simply because .. jesmyn tan has fully recovered from all the SHIT. :)

i'm darn effin' fine now ! and you ... you're in denial. i know you are hating me like "oh-so-effin-much" but hey ! i don't give a shit ! backstabbing me ? go on ! i don't give a damn.

after so many things..i've learnt my lesson.
appreciate those who treat us well and effin rid those who only knows how to bring us down. so what if you hate the shit out of me? i still treat you as my friend. :)
somehow .. i needa thank you for giving all the experiences and memories.
without that "fall" .. i don't think i'll ever learn ! thanks.

now. i'll need to repair and patch things up. do whatever it takes to not let " it " slip away again. i did my mistake and had realized that i'm in the wrong. so. yes. have to repay.

i know this time it's gonna be real hard. but. it's okay. i'm holding on and nvr gonna give up.

it's a brand new me now. new life. new house. new room. new hairstyle? new hair color? hahaha. because of the "incident" mum allowed me to dye my hair ! hahahaha

cuz she wants me to turn over a new leaf. haha. so yeah. thanks mum ! :D

* i do look fierce eh? *

my current fav. quote:
love is a language spoken by everyone, but understood only by a heart.
by Ms Nur Liyana Hamdan aka My Dear Friend, Liyana Lynn

❥等待是我为你付出的代价

peace out,
jesmyntan

◕‿‿◕

❥ Day 17 : that's it !

2010-01-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

woah.

again. so so much i want to blog about.

omg. friggin' tired.

physically.

mentally.

emotionally.

well. this will be the last day i'll do the counting thingy.

you guys won't see day 18 for the next post ! :)

our eyes are placed in front because it is more important to look ahead than to look back. and to see clearly who someone really are !!!!!

nights ! peace out !

~~letting go..~~

letting go..
someone so so so much better ahead !

❥ Day 15 & 16 : ?

2010-01-23T10:34:00.000+08:00

too much to blog about , to busy to blog ! :p

day 15 .. wushh ! let me settle with my new house thingy ..

let me have the time and i'll start grandmother stories about day15 ! :)

tata ! mwah

❥ Day 14 : Dead ~ !

2010-01-21T23:21:00.000+08:00

Feeling very very tired.

Too many things to handle in such a short period.

Sigh ! Hey.. "TIME" .. can you not pass so fast ?!
I'm tired of chasing lar. >.<

Yeap! I've mentioned hell lotsa time.
I'm shiftin' in next Monday ! *woohoo*
very very busy shifting ! >.<

and i'm having my individual presentation as well as my CE quiz on Tuesday!
then Human Comm quiz on Thursday!
Holy Cow. Totally Worn Out !

Well. Guess you guys will be thinkin'

"why this pathetic girl is not postin' anything emo anymore huh"
hahahaha. well. it's because ...

After

0.038 Years
1.167 Months

2 Weeks
14 Days
336 Hours
20160 Minutes
1209600 Seconds

this pathetic girl thinks it's time to stop the cryin.
yes. stopped ! :)

however, feelings are still there.

gonna keep in somewhere really really deep in my heart.
not gonna dig them out ! not anymore ! hurting enough !

well. okay. time is the best medicine. :)
wounds will heal. :)

Leona Lewis - Better In Time
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

❥ Day 13 : Fate !?

2010-01-20T10:40:00.000+08:00

was goin' up to the hilltop with this hot guy.

hahaha. well. my friends says he's hot ! lol
mr.simon hor mun soon aka my dear bro !

and yeah. saw HIS car there ! >.<

seriously wye. i have with his car more compared to him. :p

we never bump into each other since classes started ! lol.

well. my "other-eyes" saw him.

and she said told me " jes . sorry to say this lar .. he looks dead .. he looks very sick .. "
*if you are reading lar ... *
aiks. hey. you take good care of yourself lar. don't survive with sausage buns only lar. = =

okay ! cut the crap !

new house is almost done !

weehee. ppl are painting the walls.
fixing the lights and furniture will be sendin' to the house on thursday !

weehee. can't wait to deco my new room !

❥ Day 11 : Memories ..

2010-01-18T17:52:00.000+08:00

was busy cleaning and packin'

gettin' ready to shift ! woohoo !
oh yeah. fyi .. i'm shiftin' on 25th of Jan 2010.
to The Peak (Bukit Prima) , Cheras.

the view from my balcony

so. yeah. did lotsa packing. very very busy these days.
well. hopefully this can keep me from thinking.
keep me busy ! T_T
was sorting out stuff and found these.

my memories

flash back flash back. >.<

*I Love You Beth Cooper*
31 - 08 - 09
*Pandorum* , *Cloudy With A Chance .. *
27 - 10 - 09

These Memories Will Be Safely and Well Kept. :)

Will Be Still Moving Under Gunfire .....
Peace Out , continue with the packing. Lol

❥ Day 10 : How ?

2010-01-17T10:59:00.001+08:00

it is almost night here. what about there?
the temperature here is kind of cold. what about there?
everything here has changed. i've became sensible.
i have begun writing diary entries again. what about you?
it is almost dawn here. what about there?
it is really hot here. what about there?
everything here had changed. i've stopped crying.
i've kept the photos. what about you?

what would it be like if we're still together?
will we still be deeply in love with each other?
like when it started, holding hands even if it's almost dawn.

what would it be like if we're still together?
would we still be hiding things from each other?
like when it ended, although you knew you did no wrong,
still you asked for forgiveness.
how do i forgive? i won't forgive.

我這裡天快要黑了那裡呢
我這裡天氣涼涼的那裡呢
我這裡一切都變了我變的懂事了
我又開始寫日記了而那你呢
我這裡天快要亮了那裡呢
我這裡天氣很炎熱那裡呢
我這裡一切都變了我變的不哭了
我把照片也收起了而那你呢
如果我們現在還在一起會是怎樣
我們是不是還是深愛著對方
像開始時那樣握著手就算天快亮
我們現在還在一起會是怎樣
我們是不是還是隱瞞著對方
像結束時那樣明知道你沒有錯
還硬要我原諒
我不會原諒我怎麼原諒

❥ Day 8 : Too Much

2010-01-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

Yeah. Day 8.
Way Too Much !

Too Much To Blog About !

Malas ! tata ! :P

❥ Day 7 : Burp ..

2010-01-13T16:05:00.002+08:00

Day 7 ..
Hmm .. Yes .. 7 .. already one week. how many more comin' ?
Oh Yeah . 7 is Dad's Favourite Number as well ! Haha * =.= okay .. random *

Well. Like other ordinary Weds.
have to wake up darn early to get to uni for CE class.
dunno why on earth i can friggin' open my eyes today.

feeling so so so weak. don't feel like gettin' my ass off the bed ! >.<
but of cuz..in the end i did la. i have to. = =
went to uni .. and then .. slacked CE class ! great huh.

have to finish up our(me and lynn) very first presentation. huhuhu.

makan-ed @ Sakae Sushi Leisure Mall.
omg. darn darn full wye >.< and guys. next time we must eat those set meals la.

red plate .. green plate .. pink plate .. @#$%^ kelam kabut wye !!

" i still love you " all of a sudden ... hur ?
i know ! i know ! you've repeated it N times.
you do love me .. AS A FRIEND. Mutual Terms. You're all sealed up..I've hurt you too much and so on ... Ryte ?! = = you don't need to repeat it. i'm not that stupid. sigh

and when you thank me for changing your life..you'll be a better person..sarcasms ah ? you said it's in a good way..but i don't think so lur. you're rotting. is that what i've changed you into!? It's my fault that you're rotting huh. or you're just doin so, so that i'll feel guilty ? sigh. you say you want to change to be a better person. but you're like back to how you were b4 ! is that even changing? please lar. is this how one change to be someone better? you're wise enough to know what to do. take good care of your health, take good care of yourself. well. i know i'm nobody to stop you from doing anything, but all i can say is .. again. if that's what makes you happy ! go ahead. do whatever that makes you happy. i really hope that what you're doing now is only for the time being. and if by using those words..phrases..on me..like i did to you b4 makes you happy..by all means..go ahead ! please be my guest ! JUST DO WHATEVER THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY. :)

sorry people .. i know lar .. reading my posts .. you guys will think .. " iyer..this girl darn pathetic lar " . but hey ! I DON'T GIVE A DAMN k ?! This Is My Blog ! I Say What I Like :)
If you don't like it .. Hey .. Can You See The Red "X" Button on the TOP-RIGHT-HAND of your screen?? Yeah Yeah. That One. Please Be My Guest ! Click ! and Leave ! :) Thank You.

I was a happy-go-lucky..all these while. but yeah. more and more challenges are waiting for me. more and more obstacles to over come. lotsa ups and downs. lotsa tears shedding. to cut it short. lotsa crap coming la! but so what ? this is life. i wanna grow up i wanna learn ! and this is part of growin' up ! I wanna be a better person ! not that say i'm a bad one all these while but not too good la. :p
and please my dear friends. don't be sad. some of them come tellin' me
"please don't be like that. seeing you like that makes me feel very sad. don't cry. not worth your tears. there are lotsa better ones out there. don't be so silly cryin' for him. don't need to."
Dear Friends. Worry Not. Like I've Said. I'll be fine after cryin' .. and please don't say that. everyone deserves to be loved. he's not a bad guy. he's not that bad afterall. Just let me be. I'll forget. I'll let go. I'll move on. When i'm ready. When i think i've loved him enough to let go. K? I'm Alright. I'm Ok.

Peace Out. Wanna Nap. Very Very Sleepy ..... Tata

❥ Day 6 : Hmm..

2010-01-11T10:52:00.221+08:00

i remember once chatting with one of my high school bestie - siongkoon,
he introduced me this song. he said this song could make him cry.
okay. i listened to that song after that. liked it too.
what was in my mind that time is "woah..the melody is really nice".

i started printing the lyrics and the piano chords so that i could play on the piano. :)
he told me to try understandin' the lyrics. it's exactly how he felt at that moment. *when he had some problems* he said he can cry listening to that song. i told him : "aiks. don't cry la. don't be sad. everything will be fine." but in my mind..i was thinkin' *uihh? why can he cry to this song urh? that touching lyrics meh?*

today. like other typical tuesdays,
came home after my classes, leave my things in my room.
i'll normally go prepare my stuff and take a shower.
but didn't know what happened today, left my things then straight i went to my piano.

maybe my fingers are itchy la, haven't meet the piano keys for quite some time. :P
saw the lyrics and the chords of that song siongkoon intro-ed to me lying on my music stand.i played and sang to that song. and didn't know why..suddenly tears started shedding again.

here. this is the song. enjoy it. it's a really nice piece of music with great melodies and meaningful lyrics.

and my dear neneks. i know. you guys will be making noise asking why is it all in chinese. here you go ! i got the translations from some i dunno what website! *winks*

终于说出口 by 小宇

你终于说出口其实你早就已经不爱我为什么要低著头你知道这玩笑骗不倒我可是这不是玩笑是要逃避你离开我的理由

我还能做什么你已经不爱我我一直都爱著你难道这还不够我还要做什么你才不离开我我知道你已无心再继续看著我一心想离开我

我终于也说出口其实很爱你但从没认真说过或许是我的错多在乎你却只放在心中不要问我为什么因为爱你这就是我的理由

没什么需要被原谅我笑得有些牵强你知道我总是能够假装不难过 oh 不想看你那么累多希望再给我机会颤抖著我的手握住的只是风

Finally, Said Out Loud by Xiao Yu

You finally said it out loud. You actually don't love me anymore. Why do you need to bow your head? You know this joke can't fool me. However, this isn't a joke. It is the evading of the reason why you left me.

There's nothing else i can do. You don't love me anymore. I've always loved you, Is that not enough? What more can I do, So that you won't leave me? I know that you have no intention to look at me anymore. Wholeheartedly, wanting to leave.

I've finally said it out loud too. I do really love you, but never seriously told you so. Well, maybe it's my fault for caring about you a lot, but only keeping it in my heart. Don't ask me why i'm keeping it to myself. Because I love you, that is my reason.

Nothing really that needs to be forgiven. My smile might seem a little forced. As you know, I can always pretend not to be suffering. I Don't want to see you so tired. Wishing to give me one more opportunity. what my quivering hands are holding on to now .. is WIND.

koon. i dunno if you'll read this. now. i know why you'll cry. and now. I don't only think that this song has a nice melodies .. but also .. very very meaningful lyrics. cuz yeah. i cried. i guess i can so-called feel the song. sigh.

sometimes. i rather be blind and deaf.

so that i could get things off my mind.
lots and lots of people will come tellin' me
"jes !! i saw him here la..there la..!!"
"jes !! he's there wye !!"

like today.

*while eatin' at pizza hut*

zaza: Jes ! You know ah ! I met him !
me: hur ? him ? which him ? *being ss* there are so many him-s in my life woh ! hahaha
zaza: him la jes ! nick la !

me: ... oh. why ah?
zaza: no lah..him being random lah @ my P.Islam class !

me: !@#$%^&* he forever 1 lahh !! screw him la !!
zaza x2, sasha: jes .. chill lah. are you okay ?? what happened?? why so pissed off la?
lynn: *lynn being lynn* No guys ! She's Not Okay !
me : #$%^&* i'm fine !! just screw him la !!

and again

*waitin' outside C209 for our human comm class. for there's a class goin on in there.*

sasha: jes jes jes !! i saw that dude !!
me: dude? what dude? who? where?

sasha: this one dude la! wearing red. in c209 !!

me: huh? what wearing red dude la?
sasha: your ex dude la sayang. he's in that class la.

me: !@#$%^&* so? alar. screw it la! can't see la ! didn't wear specs!

sorry people. mind me for acting that way. sometimes i can't help it. >.< whenever i think about stuff, i'll still cry ! yes ! i may look like i'm okay. i may look like i'm damn fine. i can smile all the way. laugh all the way. when you people around me talkin' about him. i may look like i'm hating the shit out of him ! i may look i'm darn pissed at him ! sorry guys. at some points, i can really be a good pretender. and you might get to know from EVERYONE that i'm quite close with whoever. but..hey..they are just being a friend. be there for me when i'm down. when i need them most.
if you're jealous. thanks a lot. i'm glad and i appreciate that. but it's okay even if you're not. do whatever that makes you happy k?

after so many days. God dammit ! = = yeah. i still miss him and i really hate that !
you asked me not to cry anymore. you think i can ?

people. don't ask me "jes..are you okay?" "jes..don't cry please".
just let me be. i'll be fine after cryin'. k? please. i'll be okay.

thanks all of you guys a lot for being there for me when i needed accompany and support most. :)
parents..sis..friends..everyone! :)

Holy! Didn't know i've blabbed so much ady ! >.<
sorry for torturing your eyes yeah people. *if you guys actually read everything la :p*
a lot to say actually, but. yeah. i'm tired. needa rest ! :)
blog another day ! mwah !

peace out !

❥ day 4 : hmm ?

2010-01-10T15:14:00.002+08:00

* quote of the day *

it's true that sometimes you have to just walk away
to see who comes after you.

so. you're comin' after . or walking away ?
further and further in an opposite direction ?

well. let's see.
it's gonna be hard this time.
very very hard.
things won't be like before anymore. :(
sigh. what a challenge.
really gotta work things out ......

❥ Day 2 - Disappointment

2010-01-08T09:48:00.002+08:00

It's raining outside. I should be in my blankets .. snoring away ..
but just don't know why..i'm already awake at 8am ! wth ...

Yup! It's Day 2.
it's darn true that ppl say
you'll never know how strong you are
until being strong is the only choice you have.

i don't know if you'll read this. but hey..

why are you tellin' me that ? to make me sad and make yourself feel happier?

congrats. you succeed. i'm effin' disappointed !! yes !! darn disappointed.
you'll say you'll never quit for anyone except yourself ! and now you tell me it's gettin' worse! sigh . aren't you wise enough to think ? SIGH !!!!!!

well. ppl said those undergoing depression will do "THAT" more. Yeah.
but .. you don't seem depressed. you're like happier than ever. so carefree !
and .. why do i have to feel darn upset when you're enjoyin' like there's no tomorrow ?
stupid me !

don't like to suspect anything
doesn't mean that I have no feelings.
looking at your profound changes,
i’m not angry..but hurt.
i dislike being misunderstood.
but the more I explain, it'll just make me sadder.
yeah. you can say that people will change..
but please don't say that it was my fault that you would do THAT.
But Worry Not.
it'll be fine after crying. the wounds will heal. the pain will go away
I believe this and hence I left.
isn't love for embracing and for hands held tight?
and not arguing, and turning away from each other?

the "memory spaces" in me are limited,*lol* so it’ll eliminate the bad ones.
The more beautiful the past is stacked
The greater sadness i'll have to overturn when i'm wanting to forget
i want courage .. and i know it must be somewhere within me.
although yearning is bitter. but i still thank you for making me learn.
i'm growin up. i guess.*sarcasms much* = =

sigh. i need a guiding star. gimme some options .. what can i do ? * lol ? *

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

back from uni finally !
have to meet some doctors later with dad !
urgh..dunno what crap is happening to me these days.
i vomit what i eat !!!!!! diarrhea somemore !!!!!!! sigh !!!!

❥ Day 1 - A Start Of Something NEW ~

2010-01-07T10:25:00.001+08:00

sasha : hey ! what new year resolutions you guys have ?!
me : *happily answering* my 2010 resolution is .. to have a resolution ! XD

classes has started for about a week.w

and my $%^&* course selection is still not approved yet !

but despite the course selection thingy..others are still okay.

i'm havin' the same subjects as my neneks this sem *except for zaza.z*
so. yeah. a very free sem. hopefully things will be smooth lar.

hmmm.THINGS finally came to an end.
finally there's a conclusion to it.

after so long or hold back tears,
one big cry is enough for all those.

felt much much better letting it out.
you were right. we took things too soon.
frankly, this feelin' isnt good. feels like shit. >.<

though it's hard to separate, but it's okay !

just let time heal everything. :)

It's Day 1 without you !
So. Yeah ! Let's work hard :)

i hope what you said were true.

i hope that you'll keep your promises.
i don't want disappointments and regrets. please.
there's this lil.bird flew by and told me
" he'll change one. he won't let you go that easily. for you, he'll change. "
so. you have to show it to me. is it true? :)

well, that's all i guess ! gettin' ready for classes ! mwah !
peace out !

* what's wrong with the radio stations today ! keep playin' "nothing's gonna change my love for you" and "right here waiting" !! sigh !! *

waitin' for you. ❤

❥ GunJam Babies

2010-01-02T13:39:00.002+08:00

*thanks oscar for these cute lil' keychains*

met up with my dear gunjam babies on the very first day of the year

feelin' so full of hope ! hahaha

aiks. i just realized

i haven't officially introduce these bunch of awesome ppl ! :P

kah hoe

leong

oscar

kiat hong

chloe

and

me ! :P

though we face lotsa problems,

but i believe that those are just minor problems that can be solved !

let's work hard and improve together
let's get thru' the audition , shall we ! :)

like what oscar said

滚将的孩子，加油 !

I
❤
GunJam
xoxoxoxoxoxo

❥ obstacles.

2010-01-01T16:11:00.000+08:00

终於看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息求我别离开

sigh.

❥ can't wait !

2009-12-30T15:15:00.001+08:00

where has my bloggin' mood gone huh.

don't feelin' touchin the keyboard these days.

not even pressin' my mobile phone's keypads.

lotsa things happened lately changed me i guess.

plus..busy thinkin' how to deco my new room @ the new house!

weehee..can't wait to shift !

okay. whatever. cut the crap.

hmm. yeah. as my title says. can't wait !
I CAN'T WAIT FOR 2010 TO ARRIVE ! :D

hell lotsa stuff i wanna do in this brand new year !

haha

can't wait

to shift !

to see my friends !

to .....

urgh ... tooooo many ! XD

❥ merry xmas !

2009-12-24T23:30:00.000+08:00

Updates won't be as frequent as before..

but..hey..i'm not dead yet okay ! :P

40 more mins to xmas.

stayin' at home.doin' absolutely NOTHING.

ngahaha.

not goin anywhere. hmm.

so what if it's a lonely xmas !?

i walk the path i chose. :)

Oh yeah ..
Met my besties !
Ms Joey Ong and Ms Rain Loke. :D

Girls ! Thanks for the day eh ..
had fun chatting .. great time flashin' back those memories. :P
*didn't know that we passed so many "letters" huh. XD*

❥ 背对背拥抱

2009-12-16T14:26:00.000+08:00

背对背拥抱

话总说不清楚该怎么明了
一字一句像圈套
旧帐总翻不完谁无理取闹
你的双手甩开刚好的微妙
然后战火再燃烧

我们背对背拥抱
滥用沉默在咆哮
爱情来不及变老
葬送在烽火的玩笑
我们背对背拥抱
真话兜着圈子乱乱绕
只是想让我知道
只是想让你知道爱的警告(这警告)

我不要一直到形同陌路变成自找
既然可以拥抱就不要轻易放掉

❥ Holiday !

2009-12-11T14:12:00.000+08:00

Finally Done With My Finals !
Aiks !! Have really strong feelings that i'll flunk my paper !
well..never..it's over ! :P work harder next sem ! :D

urm .. havin' my holidays till jan. wuuhooo !!

don't be jealous ppl ! :)

❥Dear Haters !

2009-12-05T01:25:00.001+08:00

Dear Haters,

I Keep It Real and That's A Promise.
I May Be Whatever You Wanna Call Me,

But I'm Honest.

Well. Say whatever crap you want too.

Keep Sayin' .. CAUSE I DON"T FREAKIN CARE !

I Have My Own Life and Style,
Not Trying To Please You or Smile.
Shut Your Hatin'self

AND FREAKIN KEEP ME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH !

People Like You Are The Reasons We Have Our Middle Fingers For !!

and Ohhh ...

May Your Ears Turn Into Assholes and SHIT on Your Shoulders !!

:)

❥ 後來

2009-12-03T11:45:00.000+08:00

後來我總算學會瞭如何去愛
可惜你早已遠去消失在人海
後來終於在眼淚中明白
有些人一旦錯過就不再

桅子花白花瓣落在我藍色百褶裙上
「愛你」你輕聲說
我低下頭聞見一陣芬芳
那個永恆的夜晚十七歲仲夏你吻我的那個夜晚
讓我往後的時光每當有感嘆
總想起當天的星光

那時候的愛情為什麼就能那樣簡單
而又是為什麼人年少時
一定要讓深愛的人受傷
在這相似的深夜裡你是否一樣也在靜靜追悔感傷
如果當時我們能不那麼倔強
現在也不那麼遺憾

你都如何回憶我帶著笑或是很沉默
這些年來有沒有人能讓你不寂寞

後來我總算學會瞭如何去愛
可惜你早已遠去消失在人海
後來終於在眼淚中明白
有些人一旦錯過就不再

你都如何回憶我帶著笑或是很沉默
這些年來有沒有人能讓你不寂寞

後來我總算學會瞭如何去愛
可惜你早已遠去消失在人海
後來終於在眼淚中明白
有些人一旦錯過就不再

後來我總算學會瞭如何去愛
可惜你早已遠去消失在人海
後來終於在眼淚中明白
有些人一旦錯過就不再

永遠不會再重來
有一個男孩愛著那個女孩

❥ 突然好想你

2009-12-02T11:13:00.000+08:00

男人与女人撒谎的分别在哪?

女人撒谎是为了要让别人好过,

男人撒慌是为了要让自己好过.

所以啊..

我们女人常常都不会把真相说出来,

不会告诉, 你们是为了要让你们好过点~

haih..

为什么昨晚梦见的会是你呢？

梦见的都是我们以前曾有过的回忆

突然好想你。。。

❥ GunJam Fever !

2009-11-29T22:35:00.001+08:00

was that an earthquake

you guys just ROCK-ED my world ?!

Love You Guys !

xoxoxoxo

jesmyn

❥ boredom strikes !

2009-11-28T00:10:00.000+08:00

this is what self-obsessed kids do when boredom strikes

*shermain & jesmyn*

❥ ʝeς ' ὀιοgφ

pressure pressure!

bye 2010, hello 2011

helloo hongkong !! *part 3*

helloo hongkong !! *part 2*

helloo hongkong !!

whatsup dude !

happy.holidays

❥ back to nature

❥ hellooo short sem !

❥ i am thankful..

❥ not too bad.

❥ ℒℴvℯ yℴu

❥ 5, 60, 260, 1825

❥ one down

❥ hunt you down.

*sad face*

A Day Out

活在感恩的世界

: it’s paradise, wherever there’s you around.

: gone ~

❥ abandoned. ;(

❥ happy birthday hongseng !

❥ happy mother's day !

❥ 时间 ，人 。

❥ soon2be.

❥ finals fever !

❥ my sister - ii

❥ my sister.

❥ raped !!

❥ so quiet.

❥ weird dreams. just for "you" .

❥ nobody

❥ deep

❥ soon

❥ sexxxayyy !

❥ cair-ed.

❥ hearts

❥ happy valen-cny !

❥ happy valen-cny !

❥ Day One - Turn Over A New Leaf

my current fav. quote:love is a language spoken by everyone, but understood only by a heart.by Ms Nur Liyana Hamdan aka My Dear Friend, Liyana Lynn

◕‿‿◕

❥ Day 17 : that's it !

❥ Day 15 & 16 : ?

❥ Day 14 : Dead ~ !

❥ Day 13 : Fate !?

❥ Day 11 : Memories ..

❥ Day 10 : How ?

❥ Day 8 : Too Much

❥ Day 7 : Burp ..

❥ Day 6 : Hmm..

❥ day 4 : hmm ?

❥ Day 2 - Disappointment

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤back from uni finally ! have to meet some doctors later with dad ! urgh..dunno what crap is happening to me these days. i vomit what i eat !!!!!! diarrhea somemore !!!!!!! sigh !!!!

❥ Day 1 - A Start Of Something NEW ~

❥ GunJam Babies

滚将的孩子，加油 !

I ❤GunJam xoxoxoxoxoxo

❥ obstacles.

❥ can't wait !

❥ merry xmas !

❥ 背对背拥抱

❥ Holiday !

❥Dear Haters !

People Like You Are The Reasons We Have Our Middle Fingers For !!

and Ohhh ...

May Your Ears Turn Into Assholes and SHIT on Your Shoulders !!

:)

❥ 後來

❥ 突然好想你

❥ GunJam Fever !

❥ boredom strikes !

helloo hongkong !! part 3

helloo hongkong !! part 2

sad face

❥ 时间，人。

my current fav. quote:
love is a language spoken by everyone, but understood only by a heart.
by Ms Nur Liyana Hamdan aka My Dear Friend, Liyana Lynn

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

back from uni finally !
have to meet some doctors later with dad !
urgh..dunno what crap is happening to me these days.
i vomit what i eat !!!!!! diarrhea somemore !!!!!!! sigh !!!!

I
❤
GunJam
xoxoxoxoxoxo