8.1.10

❥ Day 2 - Disappointment

It's raining outside. I should be in my blankets .. snoring away .. 
but just don't know why..i'm already awake at 8am ! wth ...


Yup! It's Day 2.
it's darn true that ppl say
you'll never know how strong you are
until being strong is the only choice you have.


i don't know if you'll read this. but hey..
why are you tellin' me that ? to make me sad and make yourself feel happier?
congrats. you succeed. i'm effin' disappointed !! yes !! darn disappointed.
you'll say you'll never quit for anyone except yourself ! and now you tell me it's gettin' worse! sigh . aren't you wise enough to think ? SIGH !!!!!!

well. ppl said those undergoing depression will do "THAT" more. Yeah.
but .. you don't seem depressed. you're like happier than ever. so carefree !
and .. why do i have to feel darn upset when you're enjoyin' like there's no tomorrow ?
stupid me !


don't like to suspect anything
doesn't mean that I have no feelings.
looking at your profound changes,
i’m not angry..but hurt.
i dislike being misunderstood.
but the more I explain, it'll just make me sadder.
yeah. you can say that people will change..
but please don't say that it was my fault that you would do THAT.
But Worry Not.
it'll be fine after crying. the wounds will heal. the pain will go away
I believe this and hence I left.
isn't love for embracing and for hands held tight?
and not arguing, and turning away from each other?

the "memory spaces" in me are limited,*lol* so it’ll eliminate the bad ones.
The more beautiful the past is stacked
The greater sadness i'll have to overturn when i'm wanting to forget
i want courage .. and i know it must be somewhere within me.
although yearning is bitter. but i still thank you for making me learn.
i'm growin up. i guess.*sarcasms much* = =


sigh. i need a guiding star. gimme some options .. what can i do ? * lol ? *  

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back from uni finally !
have to meet some doctors later with dad !
urgh..dunno what crap is happening to me these days.

i vomit what i eat !!!!!! diarrhea somemore !!!!!!!
sigh !!!!





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